reality check

There will eventually come a time when everyone will prove their worth- amongst friends family and most importantly- self.

but what if your whole life is a selfish pursuit?

and your regard for things is so self centered that you hurt everyone you know.

are you that fucked up? honestly.

i have spent my life in an ignorant dream that people dont hurt people intentionally.
after many enlightenments i see that our nature as humans is a cruel self centered one.

and in the end we are all out to get ours.

today

it pissed rain all day at work.
i came up with this because it was filling my head and suffocating me- to be as dramatic as possible of course.

I shut my mouth in the passing days because saying nothing is better then saying anything at all. Still i don't even cross your mind- i tired once but you waved me out of your face like a fly. It makes sense i suppose, how could anyone grow to like a buzzing in their ears while they try to sleep?
world peace is more likely then me and you. I hope for something so childishly only to be sot down like an unmarked plane in skies of war.
there is nothing here. There is only me and what i choose to dream about to pass the days that you could care less and less. There is no peace for a restless undesired heart. I mean nothing to you and nothing hurts more then truth. there is absolutely nothing more pathetic then dwelling on this like i do- if you could care any less id only want you more.